Whats with this Regionalism??

Well, after this ongoing uncivilized effort of splitting up the nation, which I least bothered about, I had to to pen down thoughts when I had to hear it from the people I sought interest in. I seriously dont understand whats so regional about the country when it is said to be a sub-continent of thoughts, ideals, culture and of all people.

India - The name itself gives me pride in my heart to say that I am representing a country with such diversity, but to my utter disappointment, I see my country being split up by such uncouth people, just for the sake of political greed. The worst of it is when I hear about the support from well educated people, just agitated by the context of being born in one region. What if you are born in one place? That doesn't mean that it has to be split up from the congregation of the people who have the same cultural opinion, same language, same write ups.

The worst of fears is that we never learn from our past. Even though the facts are clear, it is this mere sense of individualism of having a separate entity wouldn't never solve the issue at hand.

I really don't understand to what level this demarcation would go on, now we are saying a different state, after that we would say a district has to be separated, then a particular region, eventually the so called independent state owners are not realizing that they would be left all alone in the world of such fierce competition.

Complicated Love!

as ecstatic as it sounds, trust me its complicated... i have seen various versions of it and as i experience my own flavor, i realize it is a complete mess, if i have to put my minds thought to it. but to my unknown conscience i would rather prefer dealing with it rather than putting an end to it. its an experience to learn and would suffice my basic nature of living the learning process.

if all what i have experienced till now is just infatuation considered, then this one is ought to be tru love. but its not a joy ride though, some times i feel like evading the present and get back to my past of living the machine way. but lest the human existence would be devoid if the task at hand is not tackled with.

for now i would try to deal with it, with the possibilities of getting the advantage point becoming a bit weak, but as said the difference between winning and losing is one bloody inch.

Broken!! as expected..

Well, that last post did have a feeling of the short term of the relationship that a Gemini-Capricorn would have. Though not an ardent beleiver if signs and prediction, it did turn out to be true. But the feeling of having a shattered heart is this terrible, then no one should ever go through it. Life is to be enjoyed and not to be troubled on its survival. I dont understand the concept of certain aspects, and propbably it is of best intrest not to try understand this vague perceptions of relationships.

But, a suprising factor is that, there is a profound impact of the fairer sex and dont know why that is the norm. I want to break even an get loose of it, but shackles are so complicated its getting a unknow sense of humility, because i am so confused, as I am not sure whether I want to get out of it or not...

Endured!!!

I have been through this moment of joy, its a fantasy reality. I know it would be a painful if it ends the way its not expected to be. But the truth of a Gemini-Capricorn relation ship would have to persist upon the itinerant self. Whats meant to be can never be denied though, if fate is to be believed.

It may sound a very vague explanation, but entrancing it is as delightful as experiencing. Oh what can I say, seconds roll out to be minutes, minutes roll out to be hours which eventually roll out to be days. its been a whole week past and i could hardly say it was for a few minutes...unbounded time, such is the limitless chant of the damsel.

dazed to confused!!

it is all worth while it goes on and you feel no loss of time while talking over phone(thanks to the inventors of such powerful communicating tools) I feel like entering the next phase of life. but seriously i feel in such confused state of mind, i have never felt as perplexed before. if falling in love is such confusion then its tough. i guess i am naive in such topics but at the end it feels good.

i know i cant draw conclusions in such short span of time, but the experience has been a surprise in all possible ways i think..the name, the incident, the purpose, present ..hopefully the conclusion also turns good.

there is so much to express, but there are moments of joy that are priceless.. hope this reality is not a dream..

New Developments

Its been a while since I blogged, was busy living and was finding it difficult to pull out some time to pen down all the thoughts that I did think were worth a memory. But as it goes, there should be a good triggering event to have that initiation. Well, I have been growing in the past few months monetarily, technically and artistically.

I came across a good quote today "Love is second mistake created by GOD of course girls are first But the fact is that both are beautiful mistakes" - Unknow. It has always been a mystery for me on the good feeling that the we are meant to be in. Frankly I guess didn't happen to be in such situation a couple of times, but never realized it to be in that intensity.

All the recent developments were quite a surprise though rather than a planned phenomenon of strategy, which I thought, I was very good at. Sometimes its quite difficult to play with the Creator Himself. Looks good as long as it goes good though. Hope this life last long enough.. Hope this is it to trigger the phase 3 of my Life. "Hope" sometimes does make a chill run down the spine.

trust, deception, belief..

its a normal routine, where priorities were dominating the normal life and keeping you busy. racing against time and keeping your schedules in track and reaching target, somehow time passed and thoughts piled up, i was lost in track of "time". much to my surprise i realize that you come into actuality on when certain events are triggered that preposterously shake you brains off and in a good way get you into sense, making your targets, goals clearer.

i learnt over and again that you and only your past experiences are to be trusted and no one else. the concentric eccentric thought is the what you can rely on. "people" are the most vulnerable to deception and trust would could be relayed upon only the inner circle.

i have had this feeling that the opposites are the most deceptive of our kind and as age advances materialism would predominate the thought process. it is present in everybody but the concentration levels surprised me in reality(though i had a feeling that i knew it from the very beginning).

i would like to remember this post a journal rather, reminding me of the triggering event. life and a lesson learnt again. should be on of those tagged events in life that you would never tend to forget.

time spins!

ohh yeah it spins!! I don't know how much I believe in destiny, but whatever happened to me in life was all for the good nevertheless that there was excruciating hard work that goes with it. But some times things turn up so fast it really seems it was an easy task to handle.

all is well that ends well...but alas the human brain, it thinks all perfect but succums to the God play and has it course of action take place as is. life is a like that flip of a coin you cant change whats going to toss off but you really think, though correct to an extent, it can be controlled.

confused ain't you..so am i!! just learn to live it!

It goes on...

Hectic schedules to keep up, keeping the thought process running and maintaining peace. Its becoming more tougher to manage than I thought of. It never ends, it goes on..

To commonize the random thought and just resiprocate is not big event in life, its just the routine that makes you forget your priorities and sets those standard goals to reach. Striving to reach these goals would lead you of the thought path that has been laid and you would love to lead that way.

As sarcastic as it turns are other things that come into the common routine and you find it so damn irritation that at the you say Hell! Whatever... But then in the next very split second reality comes in to commotion and the stands remain the same.. I hope my thoughts get clearer as time and life passes.

Hell yeah!!

Weak Moments, more lost than gained!

well, it all happened and to the peril of my fears what happened happened and you just can't change it. she got in touch with me and what i could survive of it was to just reciprocate rather than to react. two days later much to my dumb conscience, i realize i am in love!! but the confusing part is that i am with her writings first leading me to her..

an utter reciprocation showing the male chauvinism, led to more loss than to gain i guess..damn i hate it..destiny of it is supposed to be, hope i get her back.

and much to my already confused self is that it never ends. it repeats like a burgeoning cycle apart from the routines. life pretty complicating as it gets to me. hope i see it clear in my next post.

am i as confused???

Renewed thoughts!!

Its that point of life's getting better, cant say if the recession has ended on the first world or not, but sure it is..getting better and its great to be happy. After all the turmoil, at the end of labor, is a fruitfull evening or a wonder weekend that would keep you in peace. A life as it turns on you would bring up good old things and new.

I have had someone called upon me, from the one, whom I never even thought would do. Its always good to reconcile things from the past and feel happ about it. Somewhere deep in I had this feeling and even now I am not sure even if it for real at this moment. I am going to live it atleast for thought of being happy. Life as it comes.Jinxed!!

Outcasted!!!!

i realized the greatest fear of my life, which i never wanted to be in for. i realized at some point of time you need to be you and just you with your thoughts and perceptions taking place and your decisions that would only count on. the concept of I is the truth. there would also be people, who love you, with you - your inner aura. but,at times as we live our life would have to be lived with our personal decisions that have been nurtured from all the lessons learn t in the past.

swindling upon the reels of lived life, which is was then melancholy, is the one that gives me the potential to tackle the worst of situations. from the stations of India, to the rooms of the US its been a journey - lived.

coming to the worst of my fears, of being alone, which i realize i have been all through has come true today, i guess. agony, pain, claustrophobic, being in the midst of everyone and still being a noone, hope freedom with joy comes up at the earliest.

and all of a sudden i realize that true potential that raised in me, that it is you and your aura that is important and not the people around. may be they are not upto your potential, may be you belong to a different sect of individuals and there is still a lot to be lived and you might reach your destination.and giving this thought i also realized there were people with you in those bygone days and would also be with you in present and past. its just that thought process of identifying them and surgure to life. another lesson learnt.

Life in the midst of uncontrolled balance

being in mixed feelings, with work, knowledge, present and future is complete chaos. in all situations unknowingly we are in the best of conditions, which sometimes appear to me as shear luck. but, as said there is a result of every deed done..

all that could be said as a Believer, is its just Transcendental Pantheism.

seeing people sometimes give me an impression of hard luck but, seeing me, my past reconciles me of the present of them which i have passed through.. at the end of the day its the best foot kept forward with the best possible effort given. Life gives you a lot to learn! happy to be human.

People

Its a small life but you see countless number of people, have unimaginable experiances, learn from them. At times it takes too long a period to analyse them, learn from them. Yet facing the curcunfronted life, it is sometimes surprisingly strange to face situations that you would never expect to happen with people you would never thought off.

Judging the human brain is a very challenging part. It is a virtue if you could do so. Having your closest of kin hear an unsupported talk is not only depressing but also emmbarassing. No matter the bond you create over time with people, and the trust you put on them. Finally its always a "you never know!!" situation. Tursting the personal thought is the best of all. A lesson learnt.