Conditional Love!

There is no such thing as "Unconditional Love" atleast in my case. I was questioned of being not settled in life, of not having enough bank balance. The grounds on which my heart was shattered into pieces. I have loved her unconditionally, for which I was judged upon these options. I realize that I am only an option in her life and not a priority. I realize that what I have endured is to the very minuscule to her and to my utter disappointment, there is nothing called Love.

Love, trust, confidence are all faint words and are just fictional and cinematic in life. Unconditional affection is only from those who are kin. To get into a relationship, the fairer sex always needs money. With this I have lost trust in love, but my respect towards her are intact. Let thy Lord shower her with the richest guy.

For loving her unconditionally, i would rather die in peace seeing her happy with the comforts in life. I know given the amount of time, I would reach her expectations. But for a guy, who goes with the gut feeling, like me there no place to be with her.

With a very shattered heart, which is battered for one more time, I feel obnoxious for I cannot forget her. I know, I have to let go..but I can't as I loved her for what she is. Hope another faint word is what I need to sooth in for, at least to wait to rest in peace.

Ruthlessly Dumped.

I come to my own senses now..combating my own gut. I need to say, to come out of such Sloth, needed a strong point from this girl I respect the most, in fact I shouldn't even be afraid to say that I loved the most.

Despite of all the well wishers saying that she wouldn't match my aura of thought and living. I was stubborn enough to believe my inexperienced gut. I am elated to have such good family, such good friends. Thanks to the Lord on that.

There so much to say that the of all that I have lost in all these month of feud likeliness towards this girl, did give me a good lesson to learn. I have gone to an extent of disgracing my own identity for the sake of the gut feeling towards this girl. Man coming to my own senses is such a good feeling.

I hope I am not writing this piece in mere wrath of frustration, but down the line, I would be pretty confident in going over this blog for what I have done and what eventually happened for my own good.

Of all the words, I had to hear to my greatest of disgrace was the act of being hooked up that made me realize that I was not even being treated humanely. I hope all the good in the world is done to this girl..for whom I would pray God that I would have the utmost respect going forward.

For what I have done, I would be sorry to my better half and would truthfully apologize about this encounter out of the others.

Whats lost...

- trust to love anyone truthfully
- time
- interest in things that most interest me

whats gained

- the value of friendship
- the value of time
- appetite

Now coming to the grand finale, the reasons for which i have been dumped.. i hope anyone who reads this would realize, atleast i did, that beyond love there are certain boundaries of security standards that are set by the "indian prototypes"

- even though from the same caste, state there a difference in region.
- being a qualified professional and working for a couple of years with a considerably good bank balance, what I have endured is not satisfactory.
- beyond love, which i realize of late that everyone for that matter the nearest of kin can't be convinced with, parents wouldn't agree.

hearing the above, i realized that they were just mere reason to dump rather than a legitimate issue. henceforth going against my gut was the best optimal solution..

well, the say came out to be true again though "Man proposes. God Disposes" Being and ardent believer in the Lord, i would for now go with it.