vantage point

i was told, advised, reiterated many number of times that she is not the one for you. i felt it too a couple of times, but i didn't know why i liked her so much. to this very minute, regardless of the countless ways she has rejected, blamed, provoked, dumped me, even then i don't know why i like her.

but of all the pathos in life, i realize its for the good. i would still respect her, its been more than 12hrs past that we stopped talking and i come to realize, not that she is not correct for me as everybody says, but she is the perfect woman for sharing the life with me. But as said, you can never have the perfect black body, i realize that there is much more to achieve than to just boggle around with indefinite affection and grounding the rest of my life activities.

she has been quite a profound impact on me, she was quite impulsive. But the fact would remain the same, i love her. No matter how much i try to forget her, even by pinpointing the impulsive factor, i am not able to compromise on the fact that she was meant for me for life.

i am not sure where i am going with this, but if all that is meant to happen for good happens, i would reconcile one day that happiness, i predict now, to be worth the trauma of loosing her momentarily as of now. but there is a big "IF" before all this.

Man! i have darn'd to be like this, this one girl has topsy-turveyed my rather stable capricornian lifestyle.. all i can do is just sit and live in predicament of whats coming next, is it good or is it bad or is it as confused as it has been in the last few months.. waiting does take the toll sometimes.